Could I get any bigger?!
Apparently little Miss Landrie is content right where she is. As a result, I've tried almost every home induction method I could think of! Long walks, a glass of wine, spicy food, lots of different vitamins, and even sex (p.s. why people I barely know felt comfortable enough to tell me to do this to induce labor is beyond me!).
Did any of these work? Well clearly not!
Thank goodness for doctors in times like these! I had my 41 week appointment today, and we decided to induce. Landrie is measuring on the bigger side, so I want to be sure I can actually have her naturally!
Our original plan was to induce on Thursday evening, so my midwife called the hospital to reserve me a room. Well apparently reserving a labor and delivery room is trickier than reserving a hotel room on the beach during spring break! Every single room was already booked for Thursday night. How that happens is beyond me! Is everyone planning their deliveries these days?
We then tried for Wednesday night....nope, booked. Friday morning...nope. Friday night looked like it was going to work, but my sweet midwife's 45th wedding anniversary is Saturday, and I didn't want her to miss her day off with her husband. So we were officially left with Wednesday morning at 7 a.m.
When my midwife asked if Wednesday morning would work, I was kind of shocked. I think all I said was, "Tomorrow?" I mean it's one thing to talk about it a few days out, but then when it's actually booked (for 15 hours later), it becomes really real, really fast! I agreed to Wednesday morning, and my room was officially reserved.
I'm not sure it's really sunk in that we're having a baby tomorrow. To be honest, the last 9 months have flown by, and I can't believe she's actually coming! We're having a baby!!!
In the midst of all this excitement and the wonderful blessing of new life, my grandpa appears to be on the road to spend eternity with Jesus. He has been living with my parents for the last two years and has been on in-home hospice care during this time. He took a turn for the worse last week and was taken to a hospice center to manage some of his symptoms and make him comfortable.
Tonight, I went to say goodbye.
There is a possibility that he will still be with us after I deliver Landrie, but there is also a possibility that he won't. It was really hard to have to say goodbye, but I'm so glad I had the opportunity to do so. As I was driving home, I realized how grateful I was that I am being induced because it gave me the ability to tell my grandpa I love him and let him know that he is going to be a great-grandfather tomorrow.
I'd absolutely love for my grandpa to be able to hold Landrie, and that might be a possibility. But if it's not, I have peace knowing that my grandpa will be going to heaven, which means I'll see him again one day. I know that God's timing is perfect and that my grandpa will go to be with Jesus when he is called home. My prayer is that he will go peacefully and comfortably knowing how loved he is.
To say the least, today was definitely bittersweet. The fact that life begins every day and life ends every day became a reality. I'm so grateful, though, that I have the peace of knowing that Landrie will come into this world as one of God's children, and my Grandpa will also leave this world as one of his children.
It's now after midnight, which means I have to get up in less that 6 hours to go to the hospital. I'm assuming I'll need quite a bit of energy for tomorrow, so I better go to bed. Can't believe that next time I'll be writing in here, I'll be a mom!!!
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